my breif existance....

Strangers, again...

2011-04-22T00:54:00.002+08:00

this is quite a realistic representation of what couples face, re-lived some of those memories while watching the clip. It is very true, when she said, there will only be 2 outcomes, most people tend to not think about it, well, long story short, watch the vid, u you could probably relate to some part of the video.

"I would always remember parts of this period of my life, and be thankful for that..."

or, at least that is what i think he is saying at the ending... hehe, do correct me if i am wrong

long overdue

2011-04-14T03:16:00.004+08:00

I guess this post is long overdue eh?

But still I have to say

Forgive me for being so harsh,

For being so cruel

For being so heartless

For making you think that I've played you

For all the wrong that I've done

For all the tears I've made you shed

As to why, you ask?

The reason is simple, it was inevitable

Therefore it was better there and then, than now wont you think?

Thank you for making me grow up,

My view of the world has never been the same since then

Hope you've also learn something from it,

Which is: people changes, no matter how much you want them to be the same,

CNY 2011 in a nutshell

2011-02-09T03:03:00.003+08:00

running out of words lately so i guess i am just gonna dump pictures =X

At sin min's place

View from my room

At debbie's place

They say technology creates an age gap between the younger and the older generation,
apparently this picture proves otherwise, i was at a relative's place where i manage to capture this priceless moment where technology has came back to bridge the distance.

and lastly, an over-ambitious attempt went wrong!*inside joke

All the way

2010-12-27T00:06:00.001+08:00

When somebody loves you
It`s no good unless he loves you - all the way
Happy to be near you
When you need someone to cheer you - all the way

Taller than the tallest tree is
That`s how it`s got to feel
Deeper than the deep blue sea is
That`s how deep it goes - if its real

When somebody needs you
It`s no good unless he needs you - all the way
Through the good or lean years
And for all the in between years - come what way

Who know where the road will lead us
Only a fool would say
But if you`ll let me love you
It`s for sure I`m gonna love you - all the way, all the way

Taller than the tallest tree is
That`s how it`s got to feel
Deeper than the deep blue sea is
That`s how deep it goes - if its real

When somebody needs you
It`s no good unless he needs you - all the way
Through the good or lean years
And for all the in between years - come what way

Who know where the road will lead us
Only a fool would say
But if you`ll let me love you
It`s for sure I`m gonna love you - all the way, all the way

19th bday =D

2010-11-28T02:07:00.004+08:00

i hearby annouce,

i am officially another year older,

haiz, how time flies without u noticing....

so much have happened over the course of this year,

so many important decisions slapped right at my face,

i guess it is all part of growing up =\

my new found CG friends which whom i only join this year,

threw me an awesome surprise party =D

at picadally's

(not sure spelling correct onot) lol

my mom and sis got me a guitar,

(note: the one on the right is a loaned guitar from wuzhen)

totally didnt expect them to buy

the guitar for me =D

let alone white colour,

conclusion is, it was quite a happy 19th birthday,

if there was really a God out there

i think he's looking out for me =)

100-story building controversy

2010-10-23T01:12:00.005+08:00

lately there is been lotsa talk on the net bout the 100-story building or Warisan Merdeka,
this project has been proposed by a company called Permodalan Nasional Bhd(PNB) as claimed by the Federal government, therefore they were given the tender by the federal government to build this tower without any tender, this was explained by the Prime Minister himself. He also further stressed that it will not be built using public funds and would be funded by PNB instead, but what sort of a company could fork out a total RM5bil in a time of global recession and budget deficit? PNB is no ordinary company, its an investment company which specializes in investing in bumiputera companies

"Incorporated on March 17, 1978, PNB was conceived as a pivotal instrument of the Government's New Economic Policy to promote share ownership in the corporate sector among the Bumiputera, and develop opportunities for suitable Bumiputera professionals to participate in the creation and management of wealth."
http://www.pnb.com.my/

the company also has a subsidiary Amanah Saham Nasional Berhad(ASNB), which in english means National Trust Fund Limited. This subsidiary of theirs manages the trust funds which are bought by people for financial security. To date according to this article http://freemalaysiatoday.com/fmt-english/politics/pakatan-rakyat/11878-mega-tower-poser-for-pnb , they have an accumulated trust fund of RM115bil. Their CEO stressed that PNB have sufficient funds to undertake this project, and the money to be used for this undertaking will be the income generated from this RM115bil from ASNB, it doesnt mean that it'll be using money directly from the funds, this argument in my opinion is valid. It its their corporation's decision whether to built this building or not.

But however, does PNB really think this is the best decision for its investors?
the possibility of this project being a while elephant is very real,
therefore the public's concern is valid,
and neither the government nor PNB has given a full pros and cons analysis
to address the public's concern.
hopefully such a report will be published shortly
Bare in mind, petronas twin towers were built during our peak financial performance.

On a separate note
there are other mega projects going on at the meanwhile,
such as the MRT project to enhance the public transportation system which costs up to RM30bil in private fundings
and a new financial district which will cost up to RM26bil of private fundings to cite a few of the mega-projects
the government also pledged to upgrade the highways within/leading in and out of KL to enhance accessibility
I wonder why aren't they given such publicity? this are all good projects initiated by the government with quite hefty price tags too.

I hereby declare I am not affiliated with any political parties or what-so-ever, I am just another Malaysian trying to sound my opinion and analyze what i've observed.

the blissful holidays

2010-10-07T02:41:00.003+08:00

its approx. 1 week since the start of my holidays,

the end of my semester finals.....

so, what have i been doing besides rotting?

I've finished half life 2 and its subsequent expansions, (i've been playing it everyday)

finished a book called the "life of uncocoro"(in less than 2 hours)

restarted my gym schedule,

desperately trying to pick up guitar within this small amount of time......

seriously, no pain no gain is literal in this case...

during last friday,

went to visit I-city or more like I-scam coz theres nthg there.....

redirect here for more photos:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=245376&id=785854684&l=db5e231599

basically the attraction there is this LED lighted synthetic trees,

so, i think this pretty much is a one-time-only type of thing

UNLESS its on some festival where they have some events happening there =D

i must say however the effects of the lights are actually quite good on pictures

just imagine the amount of electricity is used one night alone !!

regardless whether they are LED bulbs, they still consume energy.....haihz

currently hooked onto maroon 5's new album, hands all over =D

人生中第一张牛肉干!!!

2010-08-18T16:13:00.003+08:00

after lunch with college friends,

I saw an awesome piece of crisp brown coloured paper on my windscreen,

was bout to dismiss it as another piece of advertisement leaflet UNTIL i noticed the DBKL

insignia on the header.

apparently i didnt pay for the parking, which is at Rm0.50 minimum charge,

it says i was parking at a public parking without displaying a valid parking resit,

and it also says if i do not clear the fine in 14 days, the charge will be increased to RM100 from RM50 =.=

1 more even more awesome thing is, when we got back to class,

we were asked to present our projects on the spot, damn....the day just keep getting better and better....

MY NEW LOVE

2010-08-05T20:19:00.003+08:00

as you all know...

I've been waiting for it for more than few weeks for it....

it is of course non other than......

TADA!!!

STUDIO 15 CUSTOM BUILT

chosen the green exterior because it would definitely stand out in the lecture halls.....

going to get accessories for it this coming PC fair!

MAYBE THEY ARE RIGHT

2010-07-27T23:58:00.003+08:00

maybe they are right,

是你的就是你的,

不是你的，无论你怎么渴求

到最后,

她始终不会是你的....

算了吧

还是随缘

诺自由的代价是空虚与寂寞

我接受

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CINDY!!

2010-07-11T01:25:00.007+08:00

it is cindy's 19th birthday on the 11th of july!!

but Kelvin decided to throw her a party at tapei walker @ kuchai lama
a day earlier instead....
we've been planning it for days, inviting people and buying the cake

Kelvin and cindy

highlights of the night

the girls

the guys

will be uploading picture on facebook soon!

Little italy

2010-07-11T00:29:00.003+08:00

went to have dinner at puchong around 7pm
was undecided where to eat,
and about to settle for hawker center
until we saw a special restaurant at a quiet corner
there was empty parking outside of the store
so we decided to try it out...

the place was quite empty as probably nobody knows bout the place

the interior has a great feel and mood

pricing is quite reasonable and the food is nice,
full of flavor and quality

but however the servings are only suit for 1 person,
so it is advisable to order 2 or 3 dishes to share out.

IF I HAD YOU...

2010-06-15T17:12:00.002+08:00

....that would be the only thing I ever need..

another great song from adam lambert, I've got a statement to make,
HE IS TOTALLY BETTER THAN KRIS ALLEN!!

new college life!

2010-06-15T02:03:00.003+08:00

I know I should be blogging bout this almost 2 weeks ago,
but I doubt anybody would read it, so whats the point rite?
anyways,

It started out all wrong, admin wrongly registered me under UK courses,
the course I wanted was a local course
I wanted to switch back to my original course, but they say they'll charge me either way,
SO they wanted to charge me for their own mistake? THEY CAN KISS MY ASS!
Then i decided to stay in my current program since the prospects are generally better
than the course i wanted to take originally, but its also way harder.

After giving it a hard thought, i decided to seek the counsel of my 50 cent,
by flipping it, it is decided, I'll stay in the UK programs.
then 1 week into the classes, i realised i have to pay 200UK pounds to the university in UK
WTF, that's like RM1k!
then its another pain staking process of buying bank draft
and submitting it to the very 'efficient' cashier....

and now i am finally reaping the benefits, the class generally has less students in it,
probably 20 or less. and the timetable is technically in favor of us.
No ridiculously LONG BREAKS, and there is always more than 2 classes everyday.
so college life starting to ROCK!

But its quite a difficult path i've chosen to take, I have to reorganize the way i do things now....
there are more homeworks, and more stuff to learn...but I know I am ready!

Prince of Persia

2010-06-15T01:35:00.006+08:00

watched it with the usual bunch last saturday,
I highly recommend you to watch this show,
it has reasonable action coupled with a arguably strong storyline,
its quite cool in my terms ^^
the storyline was quite engaging,
filmmakers are quite cautious these days about time traveling,
the storyline is pretty straight forward,

The show consisted of 60% to 80% of fighting,
if you play assassin's creed, you would be familiar with the weapons
and the rooftop chases on foot.

although the game's storyline has nothing to do with Prince of Persia
both main characters of the show and the game shares a few traits in common,
they imply tactics and moves with superior agility. So if u like the game, watch the show,
if you like the show try out the game... =D

Probably going to watch A-team this weekend...

haha, college life rules!

battlestar galactica...

2010-06-12T00:04:00.006+08:00

had a sudden inclination towards watching an old series called Battlestar Galactica
i had watched it on HBO on several occasions but the storyline is kinda draggy,
so i decided to torrent it....

the storyline its set somewhere in the distant future, where human beings have colonized
planets beyond the solar system. Humans then created a race of
semi-organic robots called cylons to assist human beings and are essentially slaves to mankind.
its not long before they gain sentience and fought against the humans,

the story revolves around a fleet of ships fleeing from the colonies and cylons,
its a collection of mainly passenger ships, a few cargo ships and one military ship.
with around 47500 survivors altogether,
it also demonstrates the best and the worst of human beings in dire situations,

its a worthy show to watch if you have the time

coz it could be very boring at times....

sometimes, the best decision is to flip a coin and pray its the best decision....

2010-06-02T16:30:00.000+08:00

i wouldn't realize that admin has wrongly
registered my course until i had a simple chat with a friend
which is supposedly taking the same course as me.

after 1 hour of inquiry at student services,
it is proven they really registered me to SU courses,
instead of UCTI course,
for those who are not from my college,
SU courses are supposed to be
harder as it is a twinning program direct from England/UK
and UCTI courses which is supposed to be less stressful and more diversified,

earlier, i decided to take networking instead of software engineering
for obvious reasons, software engineering have a 30% drop out rate,
even though i originally wanted to join this course,
i know that i am not exactly study material.

however right now, I am given a chance to reconsider my options again,
am i to take the more stable route? or take a gamble on software engineering?
once again i am stuck at a crossroad.....
blessing in disguise perhaps? or just another human processing error ?
anyhow, i am given till monday to make this decision.
HAHA, if I cant come to a conclusion by 00:00 hour of 7th June,
it is possible that i will be crazy enough to let a 50sen decide my future....!!

You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
because you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
because the hands of time are never on your side

if today was your last day-nickleback

posted: 01:00, 3rd of June 2010

Secrets

2010-05-19T13:00:00.000+08:00

Currently my fav probably for few weeks =D

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, All my secrets away

I really hope i could do like what they said in the lyrics, giving out all my secrets, all of them. Every secret you are keep, takes a part from you, things you want to say, suppressed deep inside your heart. So imagine you were to let out all your deepest secrets without having to live with the consequences, its such a beautiful thing....

BTW, i found a website which allows you to share secrets anonymously which goes perfectly with this post http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com I've shared mine =)

Sekinchan one day trip....

2010-05-03T00:49:00.000+08:00

had an unexpected trip to Sekinchan with
moumou, kah jiet, eric, fai, moumou's family and kah jiet's family on labour day...
it was quite a fun trip....especially when we are in the car.....
we went in 2 cars.....moumou's dad lead the way while i followed behind....
hui voon aka papaya also hitched a ride from us to go back to her hometown which was nearby our destination....couldnt snap beautiful photos on the way there, because i was concentrating on driving....XD

it took around 2 hours to reach our destination and we had lunch there....
kah jiet and his family met up with us at the restaurant....
to reach moumou's grandpa house must
go though the paddy field via a 1 lane stretch of road....the village was in the middle of the paddy field,
the road and electric system was rather developed,
along the road, on both left and right side was miles and miles of greenness...
as we cruise down the country road,
the breeze blew into the car as i lowered all 4 of my windows
air was cool and fresh enough for me to turn off the air conditioning in my car

we stopped somewhere to snap some pictures...

then later we drove on to moumou's grandpa village,

pictures taken at moumou's granpa hse....

after that we went to play basketball 3 blocks away,
we played for about 1 hour, then we went onto driving around exploring.
while moumou and kah jiet took the motorcycle

we returned to the house as it started to drizzle, sadly i have to close my window,
and it started to rain,
we could see the rain was already covering half of the paddy field,

we came back out again in my car as the rain started to reside,
followed some mud trail along the paddy field,
have to drive 20-40 to ease on the absorbers...

after bout 30 mins of exploring, we went back to the house to get bathe one by one.
then we went for dinner before departing for KL....

during dinner kena ambush by me XD

da dinner...
after that we drove back to KL

insomniac

2010-04-02T16:54:00.000+08:00

well....its 1.47am...cant fall asleep....
once i rest my head on the pillow....random shit just bombards my brains...
mainly about the things regarding the trip....seriously gotta tell you that....
organising trips is never easy, especially when there is alot of people involved....
couldnt believe its more stressful than preparing for exam....
I even have nightmares about it going wrong......

shit.....last night i slept at 5am sthg for God sake....
couldnt sleep just staring at the ceiling..
its already 2am now....I'll try to fall asleep...

ignore the time and date....even the google server is screwing with me....
actual time of publish: 4/3/2010 1:54am

2010-03-27T16:49:00.000+08:00

sometimes....i think adults are weird.....
they come up to you and say random weird shit....
5 minutes ago....my dad said "I can guarantee you are playing computer games"
his tone was filled with hostility.....
so what if i am playing??
is that so wrong??
somehow i am inclined to ensure him i was doing something important...
just to avoid another hour of lecture and shit like that....
then he said i should be studying.....WTH man

just in case you haven't notice, i just busted
my ass studying till 3am every weekday for the past 2 weeks...
i would like to get away from the books and notes for awhile
and my finals ended yesterday.....i guess i deserve some R&R....
gahhh!!!

1.15AM
3/28/2010

2010-03-05T17:15:00.000+08:00

....its a quarter after one and I am a lil' drunk.....
and I need you now.....

Tried getting the vid from youtube, but it say 'its not available in your country", so screw that, i went to download it from somewhere anyway....here's the MV....enjoy =D

Need you now-Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now....

2010-02-27T20:25:00.000+08:00

I remember once telling a friend that "you'll end up giving so much, that you'll get nothing back in return." ;but yet again, that whats love all about isn't it?

results of cyberloafing

2010-02-26T05:04:00.000+08:00

for those who didnt know who buffy is, she is the main character in a old drama 'buffy the vampire slayer'

warranty void once opened...

they should have made a video...haha

I am so gonna stick this on my gate.....

probably the last thing the camera's going to capture...XD

2010-02-25T10:10:00.000+08:00

画沙

currently hooked onto this song...

the lyrics are quite beautiful
and the melody is simple enough...
I dont care if you say i am outdated...LOL

2010-02-24T17:10:00.000+08:00

its 1.11 am and I am f***ing tired and I can't seem to fall asleep.....ugghh....*meditate*

CNY

2010-02-23T00:28:00.001+08:00

wow....i suddenly remembered i have a blog, XDXD
going to blog bout chinese new year for this year....
it came to an end in terms of holiday.

Had 3 straight nights of card games over at kah shing's
house during the week
most of the time we stayed up to 2-3am

i also threw a party on last friday....
initially only invited some people.....then i posted it as an open event on facebook....
on facebook, the attending list was only 13 ppl confirmed coming...
didnt expect the crowd to grow up to 40 ppl @.@
sadly i didnt have the time to take any pictures though...was running around catering to different groups....
after dinner everybody just started gambling...LOL...we are all typical malaysian chinese....

my dad started dealing blackjack.....which pulled most of the crowd...
then shortly after.....i started poker with the scout gang....
desmond sounded like a pro dealer explaining the game

one thing i like about poker is everybody gets a fair chance.....
and the movement of finances on the table is fast..
added with adrenaline rushes in every round....
and i only learn about playing poker few day prior to the party....
the concepts are easy enough to understand.....but the stakes are high...
to avoid loses.....we limit every round's max bet is only RM1....
even then....one can lose up to RM1.50 per round...
but as the game goes on.....they lifted the cap.....

one must know when to fold and when to push it.....
at least thats the gist of playing poker.....
the party ended approx at somewhere before 12am....

Leon Tan's 19th b'day..

2010-01-21T17:02:00.000+08:00

today is Jun Hao's special day,
our usual gang went to mid valley to celebrate with him..
haha, sry, no pictures bout that,
refer to facebook...XDXD

but after PT class, we went to a recreational park at kepong...

the pix i took there...

everybody that was present

why the kite just wont fly....

Azera picking a fight...XD

why we dont have such nice gardens...

3 so poh...XD

we went to setapak of dinner after that at ramly's corner...

haha, its funny to celebrate birthdays at mamak...
but we had fun anyway...
then we all went for pool after that...

Aquired new gear... =D

2010-01-09T00:25:00.000+08:00

i was notified that my shipment has arrived,
got a new lens today, bwahahaha,
my uncle bought it for me....
a 50MM f/1.8 mark 2 lens..

haha, for short its a beginner's portrait lens...

took some random pictures and experimented with its low aperture number

It totally blurs out the background.

will try on human subjects when given the chance.. =D

saving up for a 200mm telephoto lens next....

2009-12-31T22:59:00.000+08:00

2009 is coming to an end soon...feels like it is over so fast,
perhaps my friend was right
I was having too much fun this year =P
it felt abit unreal on this new year's eve.

hopefully 2010 brings more fun and opportunity,
opportunity to try different things,
meet different people, travel....
well...2010 brings much hope and anticipation..and
happy new year to people who actually read my blog... : )

2009-12-29T14:47:00.000+08:00

Trust
Dictionary:/tɹʌst/Confidence in or reliance on some person or quality.

Its fading at an alarming rate amongst the people I once trust, its faster than the depletion of petroleum.

Sometimes just don't know who to trust anymore,

paintball!!!

2009-12-19T00:36:00.000+08:00

i went back to Sri petaling to meet up with shao tien.... after dropping off patrick at Sentral
i was asked to join his churchmates for paintball the previous day....
which i forget to take any pictures...sry...XD
the range was in bkt jalil
the instructor gave a 30min safety speech....
the gun or marker...weights around 3-4kg...
slightly lighter than my laptop...
we are given 50 shots each per round....so we cant go on shooting frenzy...lol
the objective was to capture the opponent's flag...
we are instructed to treat the marker a.k.a gun....like the real deal...
safety pin....fingers off the triggers.....

1st round....we strategized and divided my group into 3 teams...
my team would lead the assault(this sounds cool..lol!!)
shao tien's team would be providing cover fire and assisting my team while we advance...
in case we get slaughtered...they will fill in...
the other team would be mainly focused on defending the flag...
that team mainly consisted of girls....so...
we either have to be fast...or we are toast...no offence..XD

as we entered our territory...
the field marshalls breif us again on the objective and rules....
once the round started....i had an aderenaline surge i ran towards capturing the 1st flag....
now i know what they mean under heavy fire....
bullets are barely missing me by inches....at sub-sonic speed...
2 bullets hit my body armor but it was deflected....after capturing our 1st flag...
i signaled my team to follow and we rushed towards the enemy's 'pondok'....
where their flag is....we advanced systematically...
the 'pondok' me and private random(sry dude, i dun know your name...XD) took cover behind a wall and metal board....bullets are hitting the metal plates...i can hear it..
i told him to watch our flanks, but i guess he dont know what i was saying XD
then before i know it.....i was hit....the ball hit my wrist then my helmet....
before soon...private random i guess....captured the flag...and we won the 1st round...!! Orrah!!

now it is 2nd round.....we agreed to use delaying tactics....
but this round wasnt really adrenaline pumping...
it was kinda slow though....i didnt lead the assault this time
instead i was supposed to provide cover fire.....
didnt really know how the enemy get our flag....
anyway....2nd round ended before i know it...

3rd round was the tie breaker....
some people decided not to play the 3rd round due to lack of stamina...
we were low on ammo and men....we are only given 25 rounds each...
'conserve ammunition' was the strategy....
i was on assault task again....this time...our squad is down to 6 men....
my team just 2 men....its more like suicide mission now...
upon capturing 1st flag...me and private random again rushed towards the pondok..
i was down to 10 rounds....while private random was down to 6
bullets were everywhere.....we were taking cover behind 2 blue tongs...
i told private random to cover me while i advance to the pondok...

i was pinned down behind the pondok....any false move would be game over
logic was to wait for the opponent to
deplete their ammo....i signaled private random to stay put....then enemy fire was lessening..
i shouted at pvt random to cover me while i rush to grab the flag....
gun fires were lessening from both sides....i guess ammo were depleting....
in a split second moment....i manage to grab the flag....i passed it to pvt random...
i stayed back at the pondok to cover his retreat.....
finally....the field marshals declared the game over...
we won the round.....

ugghh...its time for bed...its now 3.23 am

溺爱

2009-12-15T19:26:00.000+08:00

当那爱情转变成溺爱,
那已经没什么意思
你的坚持已经
慢慢令我觉得反感
原谅我的自私
请把我放开

I am sorry....

2009-11-28T16:00:00.000+08:00

I started it and I ended it....
I had made the decision....
I am the bad person...the antagonist
as much as i hoped to control my feelings....
its not working....I've been living a lie for the pass 2 months...
I thought I could shelf those feelings....
but it came to me hiding from the fact is no longer the answer....
I that i should tell you....
and its not fair for you to suffer from my emotional fluctuations....
and not knowing what is happening....
its best i tell you and let you go.....
I know you tried your best to make everything work again....
I tried too....but I cant...

it will be hard to let me go...
but you should....because i am not worthy....of all your tears...
I will always miss you
I will always remember you as the girl who loved me dearly...
and I am sorry I couldn't do the same....
I am selfish....I am not worthy...
I know things will never be the same again....
for other readers....its correct for you guys to hate me..I dont mind it.....
I don't ask for your forgiveness...I knew you gave too much in this relationship
its selfish for me to ask for anymore....
and I am sorry....deeply....

listening to: 珊瑚海 Jay Chou & Lara

珊瑚海

2009-11-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

歌手: Jay Chou, Lara

海平面远方开始阴霾
悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带
淹没浅浅的无奈
你用唇语说你要离开
心不在
她能不顾身般留下来
汹涌潮水你的明白
不是来和谁泪海
转身离开
认真说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
我们的爱
差异一直存在
永久真爱
竟累积成伤害
转身离开分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此
不够成熟坦白
热情不改
笑容勉强不来
爱上了珊瑚海
毁坏的沙碉融合重来
有裂痕的爱怎么重来
只是一天结束太快
你说你无法释怀
贝壳里隐藏什么期待
融化而开
我们也已经无心再猜
脸上海风
咸咸的爱
沉不住还有未来
转身离开
认真说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
我们的爱
差异一直存在
永久真爱
竟累积成伤害
转身离开分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此
不够成熟坦白
热情不改
笑容勉强不来
爱上了珊瑚海

mooncake festival

2009-10-12T20:16:00.000+08:00

arrgghhh!!! its been super duper long time since i blogged..!!!
some random updates...
went to Langkawi Island for sem break trip....
it was real fun!! too bad i dont have a water proof camera....
if not i would take pictures when i was snorkeling...
we rented a car and stayed at a relatively decant hotel...

last week....had a reunion with my form 5 friends....
they went for kite while i only joined for dinner after that...
Carol joined them for dinner too...
after dinner...we went to a playground near Wuz's and Ian's house...
we played lantern and candles....

haha....we were playing with more flammable substances
we used thinner water to light up some damp wood
which caused alarm to some of them...

me: last time we gather have to use public transport, or take bicycle...
kelvin: now we all got car !!(pointing at our cars)

kah wai joined us later the night,
I sent her to the playground,

later the night, few of us had a plan to have a test.....
we were trying to use thinner to make a Molotov cocktail...XD
although it didnt work...we plan to do another test in the near future with more volatile substances.....XD

CC night...

2009-09-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

went for a cyber showdown with Wuz, kah shing and ian again yesterday night,
going to cyber cafe has been more often compared to during secondary school,
I used to have a clause to avoid going CC
after an unpleasant experience during secondary school,
Started going to CCs again after SPM....
we played DOTA, then COD4,
these CC sessions really do help me de-stress...
life has been always unpleasant for many of us...
anyway.....hopefully there will be more CC sessions to come....

Hong's birthday..(guys only occasion)

2009-08-26T23:06:00.000+08:00

we celebrated Kok Hong's birthday at 100 C at kuchai lama,
it is also a very good excuse to gather the old 5A10,
for some reason....William only invited guys....
Me, Kin Wei, WuZhen, Ian, Bryan, Eng How, Desmond, GinChye, Chin Pang, Jit Yang, Ah Cheng,
Mun Wai, William himself and Kok Hong...
anyway, it is good becoz we could curse whole night without holding back....XD
the Tom Yam soup was a killer....couldn't take any more...
after dinner....we went to Biltzone, all 15 of us....
we started playing COD4 multiplayer, but it lag shit...
so we changed to counter strike....
the next 2 hrs was pure action, CQB, shouts, curses, bullets flying and lotsa death...XD
we even clapped and shouted when william won an impossible round....
then finally around 11pm shtg....we went off...

25 Aug 09/1.16am

after some time...

2009-08-20T21:57:00.000+08:00

it has been a long time since i entered any blog entries....
I admit...I was too lazy to write...haha
everyone from form 5 since to have a nostalgic moment on facebook these days....
uploading those pictures.....
"those were the days, when we thought today was so far away....."
that's all i have to say to my nostalgic friends....

well....my new semester has started for some time...
been lingering over something.....

anyway...just came back from the cinema with the gang watching UP...
Disney shows nowdays are evolving into something parents and kids can watch....
the show brings a message story behind while the
cartoon is cute enough to entertain the children,

haha....this might be an awfully short update....but...
these days...i just dont have the mood to blog anymore...>.<

20/aug/2009 at 22.22

50 bucks gonner....

2009-06-30T14:24:00.000+08:00

30/6/09
after a long day at class,
i went to retrieve my car while dear carol and Patrick waited at the college entrance,
on the way there, i walked with Azim, then we saw louis,
i went on his car just to make fun of him,
he send me to where my car was.
to my disbelieve, my front tyre was clamped,

then me, jun hao and louis were studying the possibility of breaking the locks.....haha
we are used to breaking the lock of the class drawers to gain access to te power supply,
after 5 minutes of struggling, we gave up, i called the 'parking authorities',
when they came, i couldnt argue much, coz i was parking in front of the
parking peraturan board,
i had to pay RM50 to unclamp my car, grrrr......
louis borrowed me RM50 since i only had RM20 or less,
was kinda frustrated when i called patrick to tell him bout the clamping,

then, i picked up carol dear and patrick from the entrance,
she felt guilty over the lost of RM50, coz she insisted on using the damaged ticket earlier,
I didnt blame her though,
we went to a restaurant to hang out,
tried my best to make her feel less guilty,

we ordered ice cream

looks appetizing...^.^

then we talked abit bout certain 'issues' LOL

we left around 5.30PM

NOTE: Dear, its okay, i dont blame you for the clamping....^.^

dataran merdeka.....

2009-06-27T12:11:00.000+08:00

today i promised Carol to send her down to dataran merdeka
to pick up her stuff for the marathon,
although i am not participating in the event.

Around 10am in the morning, i started on the 1/2 hour journey to carol dear's house,
it was quite far away from my house,
after picking her up, we went straight to KL,
I studied the map prior to the day,
i was kinda lost at bukit aman, grrr.....
after 2 wrong turns, i finally got the right one,
arrgghh...utter waste of petrol....

then, it started to rain.....heavily...
i found a parking though, was at the corner of dataran merdeka.
Luckily i kept an umbrella in the trunk,
so i retrieved the umbrella and then went to retrieve carol.
As we walked across the field,
the rain got heavier,
then we lined up at the 10KM category,

the queue was scarily long, and its not moving.....=.=

the flag....

longer queue.....

after 1 and a half hours of waiting, finally, carol got her pack and number,
we went to MV after that to join Ian and gang for transformers 2....

GSC bookings

2009-06-24T22:29:00.000+08:00

Wanted to book tickets for movies on friday, ended up with this.....

the unexpected 1st date....^.^

2009-06-21T20:25:00.000+08:00

after a meeting for the green week next week,
which i actually didnt join the club,
i went to be the 'observer' and ask questions which they didnt thought of.
I finally got the courage to hold my dear's hands^.^

the meeting ended early, after having lunch with Nicholas, Joe and my dear ^^
we decided to go times square to get father's day gift for our dads,
we watched night at the museum 2 then walked around TS awhile more....

we left around 4pm sthg, all was going well as we go home until i got a wrong turn
into jalan istana....=.=
finally went onto DUKE highway...i was in a panic state but i didnt want to worry my dear....
so i tried to recall the roads, finally i exited to setapak, sumwhere i use to live,
and managed to get us home....^^

i just cant stop smiling....XD

2009-06-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

after english class,
i felt the sudden rush of adrenaline,
trying to go through the plans I've thought about overnight.....

then i drove to SMK Sri Sentosa with Carol to pick up my sis,
was trying to stay calm at that time, although my heart was beating so fast.....
after picking up my sis and sending her home,
i finally drove Carol to a restaurant named Capri,
i choose that place because it was relatively quiet there,

i was lucky to find a parking in front of the restaurant,
as we sat down,
my brain went blank, trying to recall the lines which Wu Zhen suggested i say,
finally, i gathered all my guts and asked

"although i only know you for a short period of time, but i find you attractive,"

*hesitated for sometime*

I finally asked,

"would you be my girlfriend?"

and she said

"yes.."

the feeling at that time was indescribable

Finally when i sent her back to her car,

i had one final surprise
there was a big box behind my car boot,
i placed the box behind her car seat
and bid her goodbye....

its one of the most memorable days of my life....

16th of June

2009-06-17T11:29:00.000+08:00

the previous night,
was planning how to make my move,
consulted my most trusted friends,
and finally i made an important decision.

My hands were gripping tight on the steering wheel,
as the moment grew closer, i could feel the adrenaline,
i couldn't think straight,
After that crucial moment, I felt like i was on cloud 9.

Today would be one of the most unforgettable day of my life,
dun feel like elaborating more.....XD

Major gridlock......or traffic jam

2009-06-06T12:17:00.000+08:00

After submitting our maths assignment,
we planed to go mid valley,
as we were there, the traffic was terrifying, all the parking lots are full,
after circling the building 3 times, we decided to go 1U,
i only recognized the road by memory,
the last time i went was with Cik Shariza(Form 5 class teacher), together with cindy kin wei and hui voon,
i managed to reach OU,
followed the road sign T.T.D.I, didn't actually know what it meant,
we jammed all the way there

yick heng eventually fell asleep

anyhow, we managed to get to 1U and bought some shirt and had teatime there,

ooo RM163

Emo-ing

apple alovera juice?

Candid moment.

Yick Heng's miang face

we left at 5pm, as we were leaving,
i took the wrong turn,
and went to God knows where,
the scenery was nice though,
finally went on the NKVE finally and exited at Jln Istana,

And we practically jammed all the way to Seremban highway,
traffic reports says that all major highways leading out of KL is slow moving,
i was damn frustrated......
at least i manage to see the sunset by the air force base.....

i finally exited onto the putrajaya highway,
everybody who exited on that highway has the tendancy to speed,
coz we are f***ing frustrated,
since there was so many on board,
the max speed i was able to go was 110km/h
after dropping likken and yick heng off,
had to drop Carol at a shell station for a 'pit stop'
while i pumped air into the tyres.

I got creamed by my parents as expected,
they talked like as if i committed the crime of the century,
my dad was the usual, talking all the unrelated stuff......
it wasn't a good day that i have pictured.....

Always be my baby

2009-05-28T23:27:00.000+08:00

David Cook

We were as one, babe
for a moment in time.
And it seemed everlastiing,
that you would always be mine.
Now you want to be free,
so I'll let you fly,
'cause I know in my heart, babe,
our love will never die.
You'll always be a part of me.
I'm part of you indefinitely.
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby.
And we'll linger on.
Time can't erase a feeling this strong.
No way you're ever gonna shake me.
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.
I ain't gonna cry, no,
and I won't beg you to stay.
If you're determined to leave girl,
I will not stand in your way.
But inevitably
you'll be back again,
'cause you know in your heart, babe,
our love will never end.

You'll always be a part of me.
I'm part of you indefinitely.
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby.
And we'll linger on.
Time can't erase a feeling this strong.
No way you're ever gonna shake me.
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.
I know that you'll be back, boy,
when your days and your nights
get a little bit colder.
I know that you'll be right back, baby.
Baby, believe me, it's only a
matter of time, time.
You'll always be a part of me.
I'm part of you indefinitely.
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby.
And we'll linger on.
Time can't erase a feeling this strong.
No way you're ever gonna shake me.
Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.
You'll always be a part of me.
I'm part of you indefinitely.
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby.
And we'll linger on.
Time can't erase a feeling this strong.
No way you're ever gonna shake me.
Oh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.

This song is quite nice...^^ its originally sang by Mariah Carey.

Emergency

2009-05-27T23:41:00.000+08:00

I was washing my car,
played with my dog for awhile,
and prepared to have a nice dinner.
during dinner, i picked up my phone
and found out there was 2 miss calls from likken.
Then i returned the call,

ME: dude, you call me arr,
Likken: yah....i need antibiotics...(sounded like dying)
ME: walao, i come in 20 mins lah.

i then drove him to the clinic i went last week,

after entering the doctor's office,
Doc: Oieehh, you again arr??
Me: No, this time is him.
Doc: Aiyar, i ask you to bring your gf not your bf lah.
*WTF moment*
Me: Gf, no lah, where got gf.
he diagnosed likken, then he shoke my hand, and said

Doc: good lah you, spread more of your virus, next week bring more here.
Me: Yeah I'll bring more next week.

after a short conversation, brought likken for dinner and then sent him home.

getting sick.....

2009-05-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

arrgghh!!!! been sick for 1/2 of my semester break......T.T
anyways, this morning, i shud wake up feeling better,
but, i still feel sick, then my mom came to me and said that
my car's front tire was flat. after a quick examination,
found the cause of the problem......

aiyer, there is a screw inside the thread,
then, upon inflating the tire,
drove to the mechanic's,
dad ordered to replace the front 2 tires,
the threads are wearing out.

After replacing the tires, i went to the doctor's

Doc: Ah, Lum, whats seems to be the problem??
ME: errm, i have cough, sore throat, running nose....
Doc: hmm, you fit the criteria of a H1N1 paitient.
ME: Yeah, my parents said that too...
Doc: hmm, i am giving you antibiotics, and followed with many other colorful tablets,
ME: yeah sure.
Doc: Wah, i've been treating you 2ndary school till college, got girl friend onot?
*WTF stare*
ME: Aiyah doctor, where got gf.
Doc: you so handsome and tall, sure get wan,
ME: Aiyer, my college no gals wan,
Doc: Which college?
ME: APIIT
Doc: Owh, the bukit jalil that wan.
ME: yeah.
Doc: okay, see you next time, your medicine shud be ready outside.

then i paid and took the medicine home.
after texting everyone calling off today's outing,
was lazying around the house for the whole day,

my meds....

Rainy day.....

2009-05-15T17:12:00.000+08:00

It was quite sometime before it rained.....
however, it made a surprise visit at the most inappropriate time....
was having maths......then the windows turned very very dark, exaggerated by the
window tinting.......and it started to rain.....

Patrick: Walao eh, raining wor.
ME: So? walk lah...
Patrick: yeah, be a man...

then, few of us braved the rain, while most of the girls have a mini umbrella.
my trousers went wet in 30 seconds
can feel all the extra weight....i was more concerned about my laptop though...
as we reached the main campus, i drop of my stuff and went to the toilet with few guys.....
we all found an innovative way to dry ourselves....behold!!!

lol....jun hao was actually keeping the machine blowing...

aihzzz.....it has been some time....since i played under the rain....
brings back memories.....

random picture

2009-05-10T16:21:00.000+08:00

taken around few months ago.

my 1st accident......

2009-05-09T11:04:00.000+08:00

as i was on the bukit jalil highway,
bound for my uncle's house around 11.30am,
i switched to the fast lane as i was trying to get things done on time,
was going around 80-85km/h, there was a thousand thoughts in my mind,
and then my body was on auto-pilot, again,
as i am already using this road frequently,
then, at a particular stretch of road where they are upgrading the road.
didnt notice it till it was right in front of me so i slammed the brakes,
tried to turn left, but there was a large trailer on the left,
and i continued to slam the brakes and felt the car skidded 2 feet,
was relived that it didnt hit the guy and divider,
then some guy rammed me at the back,
the only thing which went through my mind was,
"OMG, this is not happening!!!"
it took me a few seconds to come to my senses to comprehend what was happening,
then i came out of the car,
1st thing i did was see whether the guy was hurt,
ME: are you okay?(in cantonese)
THE GUY: diu nia ma, y suddently brake(in cantonese)
then we went on to call respective ppl to see what to do,

We inspected our car

his car was pretty messed up

mine wasnt too good....

then i called my dad,

ME: Errr, i got in an accident, on bukit jalil highway.
DAD: What? where? bkt jalil highway? nearby where? how serious?
ME: Nearby the balai bomba, err, the guy hit me, only 2 cars.
DAD: aiyer, you must be speeding lerrr....tell you how many times?
ME:.......
DAD: Okay, call mom, i still having meeting at KL.
Me: Okay, i think have to report, his quite serious, I'll call mom.

then i called mom

ME: Ma, dad got call you?
MOM: ya, where are you now?
ME: Bkt Jalil highway.
MOM: You can settle mah?
ME: Think so, he say wanna report, i think report lah.
MOM: Okay, which station?
ME: Puchong police station, meet you there.

then i called carol

ME: Hello? i just got involve in accident, dont think can meet you guys today.
Carol: What? accident? are you hurt?
ME: No, but my bumper kena quite serious, the guy's car oso quite messed up.
Carol:you want me to come over?
ME: Err, no need trouble you lah,
Carol: Owh, okay, you need ppl to send then call me lah.
ME: Okay, i have to settle this 1st, see whether got time later only meet you guys.
Carol: Bye.

then, some guys approached us, say they are from nearby workshop,
can help us settle eveything in 4 days,
the guy who hit me was like,
doubting, i said, go report 1st lah,
then the guys which approached us got us to the police station,
on the way there,
sheng yong called,

Sheng Yong: dude, which police station you at?
ME: err, the one opposite ioi, why?
Sheng yong: err, we are coming.
ME: huh, i can settle lah.
Sheng yong: Nvm la, anyway we are out adi.
ME: Ooo okay lah, meet you guys there.

Then i went to the station with my mom and the guy and wrote the report.
we actually followed a template which is prepared and laminated on the desk,
then carol and sheng yong came.

after the officer took the pictures of my car,
after giving statement,
we went off to lunch.

then my dad ask me to call wai qin,
then we drove to his place and see what he can do,
after checking the damage,
he said at least RM1600.
My dad was like, no problem.
was kinda shocked by his swiftness,
then he was like saying, 'i told you not to speed' speech.
ahhh.....a beautiful day ruined because of speeding....WTH....

Whats the next step.......?

2009-05-05T16:31:00.000+08:00

As much as I want to make a decision,
as hard as it gets,
its not easy when you are flooded with negative information,
and your heart tend to not follow your rational......
so many things the heart wants to do,
so many things my rational disallow....
how long can this mask withstand?
when is the time i can no longer take it?
praying hard to God to give me the strength to withstand,
these daily poundings for just another day.
I couldn't take another heartbreak,
the previous one took a heavy toll on me,
and what the future holds?
what course i should take?
as much as i wanna hide from it,
as much it bugs me at most inappropriate times........

True

2009-05-02T15:28:00.000+08:00

by: Ryan Cabrera

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true....

Hope one day i could sing and play this song with a guitar......to that someone special....it'll be so cool!!

filled with unrest....

2009-04-30T08:57:00.000+08:00

experiencing weird feelings and sensations today,
not sure what is it,
thousands of thoughts running through my mind.
As those thoughts ran through, my body was on autopilot,
I didn't even notice that I shifted gear,
those thoughts even caused me to lose appetite,
tried to relax myself, but the efforts were futile.
I know those thoughts wont just go away like that,
but i hope it would.........

If only I could write a beautiful poem.

2009-04-30T08:45:00.000+08:00

If only I could write a beautiful love poem
I would write it special and only to you
So that we will forever remain so very very true
With more than a goodness like something new
Like the everlasting stay of the sky so blue
I would pray to God
as He has answered my prayers.
I would work very hard for the Lord
With happiness the remain through all the years
Knowing that you will be very near
One so very very true,
If only I could write a beautiful love poem,
I would write it just for you.

By: Douglas Carter

Ps: sorry Douglas, I altered your beautiful poem, and recited it in class, hope you wont mind.....

The place I miss……

2009-04-29T15:40:00.000+08:00

I miss the place, where it has sheltered us from the element,
The place where it has provided so much,
and also housed a bunch of friends,
from Monday to Friday, 7 to 2,
I miss the place, where bitter sweet memories
were forever embedded in our hearts,
I miss the place, where the people that are sincere,
where friendships were so true,
this place represented
an unbreakable bond formed amongst a group of friends.
I miss the place where I don’t have to wear a mask,
in my daily dealings, the place I could fall back to.
I miss my class 5@10, where I have grown up, and found true friends……

Love

2009-04-28T12:33:00.000+08:00

I find it amazing how people would say they love somebody so easily,
Yes, this is another emo blog,
but, I feel that I have to write about this,
recent series of events happening around me has brought me to a realisation.
Its amazing how you can say that you love somebody by just know them for less than a month,
Something I would describe as impulsive, childish and immature.
You could say you like the person,
it’s also one of the fundamental reason why people make friends,
because, you would like to know the person, interact with them,
and be around them.
But love, it’s a whole different thing; it only works when it is mutual,
and it is a serious word which bears many commitments and responsibilities.
It bears the willingness to protect the person from any harm,
and take a bullet for the person if necessary.
Cherish and love that person, possibly for the rest of your life,
no matter how much the person changes, for better or worse.
Care and show affection towards the person,
Share tears and joy,
and more,
So, next time, when you say ‘I love you’, think properly,
Are you ready to take the responsibility?
Are you 100% positively sure?
Why not spend time to understand the person more,
Before making this sacred statement?
And, it only work if it is mutual.......

My usual homework session......

2009-04-24T16:07:00.000+08:00

3rd week of college.....

2009-04-22T17:12:00.000+08:00

3rd week of college, I think I've already did more projects than my entire form 5 life,
walao eh, economic analysis, cultural analysis, presentation, essay.....
i dun even wanna elaborate more,
so many things could happen within 3 weeks,
and my laptop, just went blue screen,
couldnt resolve, wasnt hardware problem, stupid microsoft....
have to reformat, its damn annoying, grrr,
OMG 2am, ciao lo.......

headache...

2009-04-19T17:39:00.000+08:00

i've been looking at this blasted screen for the past 24 hours......
shit, the projects just seem to keep coming without end.....
i've gotta remind myself not to take the hardest topic on the board next time,

far far away.......

2009-04-12T14:30:00.000+08:00

sometimes, when I am driving,

I just get the idea to drive somewhere far far away,
far away from all the insults,
far away from all unnecessary scolding,
far away from all the unnecessary pressure,
far away from the place I use to call home,
which is now nothing more than a place with 4 stilts,
an empty place stuffed with expensive things.

How could someone be so over-critical,
over such small matters,
insulting unnecessarily,
scolding unreasonably,
saying such hurtful words......

college....

2009-03-25T13:37:00.000+08:00

I am now studying at UCTI or APIIT which is located at Bukit Jalil,
its famous for technology and engineering courses,
however, in the first week of orientation, I've already noticed a few thing,
its basically a building full of computers,
the design of the place is rather modern and sophisticated,
and it is also a place to study,
the facilities are good,
however, girls are of a rare commodity here regardless of race,
i guess there is at least 70% or more of guys here in the general population,
even in the pre-u courses orientation
there are less than 10 girls in a 200 strong crowd....
crap, I am already starting to miss form 5........lol

close calls......

2009-03-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

today, i was sending my friends home from a party,
then I drove back onto jalan merah cagar was rushing for a green light at the junction suddently out of nowhere, an old man cross the road,

Lai Kuan: Arghhh!!!
Michelle: Arghhh!!!
Me: (speechless)

was calm enough to jerk left and drop gear to 2nd gear,
was kinda soft on the breaks though, i knew if i relied on the breaks solely i might have killed him....

after that....

Lai Kuan: Walao eh, you drive scarier than Sook Theng....
Michelle: (laughing uncontrolably....)
Me: Look, it wasnt my fault......the old man has a death wish!!! It was a red light on the pedestrian walk!! If it wasnt for me not screaming my heads off, I might have killed him!!

After that 2 seconds of my instincts taking over, my hands kinda shivered, must be the hormones i guess....

my heart pounded wildly.....

Earth Hour 2009....

2009-03-11T13:46:00.000+08:00

Originally started in Sydney, Australia, with 2.2 million businesses and households turning off their lights for 1 hour, has now became a global movement. This movement has spread in a global scale, as city dwellers and proud residents of Kuala Lumpur, we shouldn't miss out on the chance to tell the world WE CARE!!! Therefore I am inviting my friends and whoever reads this to join us in this global movement on the 28th of March 8.30pm till 9.30pm to vote earth and symbolize our will to tackle the evergrowing threat of Global Warming. No action is too small, we can all make a difference.

Why should we care?

We should care as it is the future of our planet we are talking about, perhaps we are not feeling the effects of our actions immediately, but some of the animals are already feeling the heat.

At the rate we are burning fossil fuel, the Polar Ice caps would be completely be melted by 2030 or earlier, sea levels will rise significantly up to 30ft or more, most of the major cities around the world would be submerged underwater. It is our children and our grandchildren who will suffer our undoings. Please show the world we care and we are ready to do something about it.

Vote for Earth, vote for a better future for our planet.

To show you care, please register at: http://earthhour.org.my

Further reading:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Global_Warming
http://environment.nationalgeographic.com/environment/global-warming/

On federal highway.......

2009-03-10T22:28:00.000+08:00

random picture

2009-03-09T18:35:00.000+08:00

yeap, those are bulletholes.

driving in KL....

2009-03-04T12:30:00.000+08:00

around 6.00pm today, my colleagues asked me to buy dinner,
they asked me to drive to the place coz its raining heavily,
non of them were following coz they are rushing to finish a proposal.
Then, i drove a black Gets Matrix out, its kinda scary coz KL drivers are
notorious for bullying "P" drivers.
I was on Jln Ampang, in front of OCBC building there was a large puddle of water,
was careful not to drive into it,
the traffic on Jln Ampang was bad enough,
and the rain still pouring,
as i turn into Jln Tun Razak,
the traffic jam was even worst,
according to the Mix FM DeeJay,
it is one of the worst traffic conditions in KL,
damn, of all time i choose this hour to drive,
was stuck on Jln Tun Razak for more than 30 minutes.

i was stuck at this spot until the rain stopped.
there was also constant bikers coming out of nowhere

Finally, when i reached office,
it was already 8pm,
crazy KL traffic........

the mornings that I enjoy.....

2009-02-28T01:26:00.000+08:00

early in the morning, sprinkles of water woke me up,
it was raining outside while it is still dark,
i guess i forgot the shut the window the last night.
My sister came and kick my bed to wake me up to send her to school,
haha, since i got my license, my sister has been pushing me around to send her places.
Have to drive to her friends place to pick her friend up,
and it was raining cats and dogs......
The visibility is poor enough, drove relatively slowly,
just hates it when some wira with Xenon lights pass the opposite road,
it blinded me for some 2 seconds!!!! Its like totally dangerous!!! JPJ should ban Xenon light altogether!!!! Its annoying and potentially accident causing!!!!

Anyway, after dropping off my sis, i drove to the LRT station,
its some 7.20am but its still drizzling,
after boarding the train,
i tried to catch some 'ZzzzZzzz'.
At masjit jamek station, we have to cross the road to the subway station,
although there is a pedestrian crossing, nowan seems to use it,
we just cross when there is no cars,
its still drizzling, some open their umbrellas,
most just ignores it.

When I reached the designated station,
it was still 8:20am, its still too early,
i went to the McDonalds for breakfast for a change,
i like the mood there, just a few people,
and i had the Sausage McMuffin,
after finishning my breakfast, i sat around to read The Sun while sipping coffee,
the rain stopped, i could see the cloud slowly disperse,
the warm morning sun rays starts to find its way through,
opps, its 8:55am already, time to work!! how time flies!!

license to drive!!!!

2009-02-27T03:08:00.000+08:00

next target, license to fly!!!!

yeah, i would like to fly one of these babes.

wandering futher into unknown territories........

2009-02-24T06:04:00.000+08:00

How I hoped we never crossed lives,

how I hoped we never shared secrets,

how I hoped you were beside me when I was walking on the beach,

how I hoped we share sweet memories,

how I hoped we have a picture together,

how I hoped that you were more than just a friend to me,

I hope that this is just more than my imagination,

these hopes are dangerous to even just think about,

I could only hope I can stop thinking about it,

and hope these hopes fades away along with time,

as its only stupidity and impulse that led me to this stage,

its now more than just following my heart,

its about making the rational decision,

the options are so clear,

and yet I am tempted to make the other choice,

only God can help me…………

Jez!!! I could read that Myvi plates without my glasses!!!

2009-02-23T14:00:00.000+08:00

yesterday, i was totally wasnt expecting something like that to happen,
I was supposed to just get a simple eye check up.
the diagnosis was too good, the doctor say i am ready for the laser surgery,
my cornea is thick enough, now would be ideal to do it.
I was completely taken off guard,
i was expecting the surgery to be on next week,
there was another friend of my dad's going for the same procedure too,
he did lotsa research on it.
After lunch, I went back to the clinic which is in mid valley,

the whole surgery process was kinda scary,
but the doctors were reassuring,
the whole process took only less than 3 minutes.
After the surgery, i could heardly open my eyes,
had to sleep in the clinic for more than 2 hrs before we could be discharged.
There was a series of post-surgery symptoms from watery eyes,
burning feeling, itching to light sensitivity.
When i was home, i took a knockout pill and slept for more than 4 hours,
woke up around 7.30pm, the symptom 'light sensitive' was cool,
i turn off all the lights and pulled the curtains in my room,
I still see things clearly under complete darkness,
this gotta be what they meant by enhanced 'night vision' or photosensitive,
I had dinner in my room under complete darkness,
had to wear sunglasses even when i am only under fluorescent light,
the best part was, i could see clearly without wearing glasses.
well, its saddening that i would have to say goodbye to my most loyal
and long time companion, my glasses......

though, things changes, hopefully for the best......
I wouldnt expect those with perfect eyesight to understand this feeling,
its like every morning you wake up looking at that blurr celling, and finally one morning,
the blurr has lifted.......

my working environment for today......

2009-02-21T12:00:00.000+08:00

time to de-stress

2009-02-15T15:56:00.000+08:00

you seriously need them...

yes Luke, follow the voice....

today on mythbusters!!!
while testing myths about walrus potions...

ouch!!

holy shit!!! they are breaking our lines!!!

continental evolution...

what the hell are you doing vader?

higher level of language.....

the signs are sometimes pretty straight forward.

the evenings....

2009-02-13T12:37:00.000+08:00

and the great fireball descend slowly into the deep chasms beyond the horizon.......
I was given the privilage to see the sunset on my routine transit back home,
it is rare because the cloud conditions and the time was right,
the stretch of tracks between the stations sungai besi
and bukit jalil was relatively straight,
i normally only have 10 to 15 minutes to look at the scenery.
today, the time was right,
the conditions was perfect,
and it wasn't glaring,
it was the best I've seen so far, thank you God for the beautiful scenery.

KL view

2009-02-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

I am da guy in white/green shirt, hahaha...

KL view

2009-02-06T16:30:00.000+08:00

Taken during 31st Oct 2008

KL view

2009-02-06T16:00:00.000+08:00

Walao eh!!! Liddat oso can arr???

2009-02-06T14:49:00.000+08:00

On my routine commute home, there is usually nthg much happening,
however, at plaza rakyat station, there was an old lady in particular boarded.
All the seats are occupied, i was expecting someone to offer her a seat,
but after 5 minutes, nobody offered,
I couldnt help her because i am standing myself,
I make a quick scan amongst the nearby seated commuters.
Some were sleeping, few was reading, most try to ignore her presence,
such ignorance disgusts me, i use to think these were myths created by moral teachers.
finally, after 1 station, a young malay girl at the end of the roll offered her seat to the old lady,
the old lady looked so thankful and happy,
at least there is a generous soul out there.
Was kinda disappointing when they say Malaysia is a very hospitable place,
but cant even treat their old better,
this simple but alarming incident might not be acceptable in European societies.
Not sure what to say, but hopefully M'sians be more courteous and less ignorant towards their surroundings.

random picture.

2009-02-06T12:01:00.000+08:00

random picture.

2009-02-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

Taken during my ride home, station masjid jamek

random picture

2009-02-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

在轻快铁上……

2009-01-31T18:00:00.000+08:00

站在门边，看着窗外的风景，突然想起了你,
听着百听不厌的那首歌,正在诉说我的心情。
虽然每天都见这片景象，但感觉今天的日落特别美,
或许是想你的心在作怪把，
每当想起你的笑容，一切都变得美妙。
脚下地板的震动和人潮的拥挤之下，
我心中还是感到空虚，
仿佛心中少了些东西，却又说不出口。
可能在你心目中，我对你而言，只是普通朋友而已，
可是当我第一次看见你，我已经情不自尽的对你投下了感觉。
天真的我以为时间可以把那些感觉带走，
那脆弱的心可以压抑住那些感觉，

可是，
那些感觉不知不觉的从心中溢出来，
才发现，原来我每天都在想着你……

the power of outfits.

2009-01-27T16:00:00.000+08:00

It is amazing how the way you wear could disguise your age,
every morning, my working attire makes me feel at least 5 years older,
my colleagues once mistaken me for a senior employee.
which is quite funny when they found out i am just a form 5 grad.
On separate accounts, I was at low yat once,
wearing school uniform with 2 other friends.
upon entering the store, there is 1 store employee tailing us all around
which makes us felt uncomfortable.
In another incident, i went to the same store in my working attire,
was amazed by how the difference was,
no doubt, we are sometimes pre-labeled by the way we dressed.
I guess this is just a state of mind though,
However I dont blame them as this is the easiest way to categorize people.
We all do judge people from their attire as it is the first thing we see about them.

another gila morning.

2009-01-23T12:30:00.000+08:00

When i woke up, i did the 1st thing i do every morning,
grab my watch and look at the time,
my watch indicates 8am,
was too shocked to say anything,
normally at this time, i would be standing in
the putra LRT station already.

Did speed brush up and grabbed some bread for breakfast,
my dad was on his way out so i tumpang his car out to sri petaling station.
at the station, i see the train is already waiting on the platform,
without haste, i grabbed the touch and go card to pass the ticket checkpoint,
there was an electronic board overhead, writing 'tren bertolak dalam masa 78s(and counting)'
i rush down towards the train with several other commuters.

its another 30min before i reach the hub station,
there, the crowd is to large crossing the road,
the cars have to stop for us to cross the road.

at the putra LRT platform, its again a long queue,
when its finally our turn to board the train(some 7people in front of me)
the station master shouted for us to enter through other entrance.
Me and a few comuters ran towards the other doors to board the train,
afraid that we might miss the train,
the door almost squashed my hand when i jumped in the train while the door is closing,
while the whole day, i am running on caffeine(due to lack of sleep)
quite a productive day i could say.

in change we belive

2009-01-22T08:30:00.000+08:00

"in change we belive", this might be to most famous quote of 08/09,
by President Barack Obama.
today, we witnessed a historical event,
the inauguration of a first african-american president,
it is truly inspirational that once the descendant of a slave,
is now the leader of the world most powerful country,
it is truly democracy in action.
His inauguration speech is phenomenal,
every sentence, every word, seems to strikes deep into my heart.
I guess this was why the teachers from toastmasters said
his speeches are powerful and motivating.
During the invocation when the pastor was giving a sermon,
I joined in prayer, I guess all the chistians around the world watching this historical session, would also be joining in prayer,
this transcends religion as this is applied globally.
His speech was 20 minutes long, no more no less(yes, i timed it)
lets hope he delivers his promise to bring change,
his actions within the next 100 days would be crucial
as it is the time when he sets his country's policy,
which indirectly affects us,
God bless us all.

Stepping forward......

2009-01-19T17:57:00.000+08:00

In the past, life is always simple and less demanding
leading a happy and carefree life,
well, life has a way new definition for me lately,

It means responsibility and more independence for me,
newer experience, and seeing more different stuff,
having real time working experience,
in one of my field of interest.

Its is an inescapable fact that I am working without the fail safe environment of the school,
i was abit intimidated by that fact but i got over it eventually.
it is tiring at the end of the day, its always the same old burnt out feeling,
and the crunching 1 hour ride by train back home,
have to stand for most of the ride despite the tiredness in my whole body.

My usual ride home

2009-01-19T16:08:00.000+08:00

Taken sometime around last week

getting tired,

2009-01-18T00:57:00.000+08:00

I totally understands the amount of stress my dad is handling,
however, every time i ask him sthg, he would give a long lecture which have nothg to do with it.
like this afternoon, he felt that my sister is trying to avoid him.
He made an arrogant claim that my sis is being influenced by me,
Jez, i was so angry, i couldnt hold back and defend my ground,
he even remarked that he gave us all too much freedom, my foot!!!!
he has been locking me up in this bird cage, only occasionally I get to come out of it,
locked in an 'aggressive discussions' for 1/2 an hour,
he starts to say things that doesn't have to do with anything,
and threatening to cut my future college funds,
damn, its the one and only leverage he has,
its not even a legitimate leverage,
i am well aware of the family financial condition,
it all finally falls on my mother,
i am just a few drops of adrenaline away
from using this point to argue with him,
it is his usual style, threatening and using leverages,

What he doesnt knows is that actually my sister felt awkward every time when we go out,
he tries to attract unnecessary attentions, by giving the waiters a hard time,
it is really embarrassing, but i am kinda immune to it,
and she is a growing teen, she need to spend time with her peers,
he always regard our friends to us as useless, and trying to take advantage of us,
so, what he wants us to do? Lock ourselves at home and look at this blasted monitor for the whole day? or spend a day of embarrassment with him in public? I've got no other methods but to take heat for my sister, so that she wont have to go through the life i have been through.
He never understands, he just thinks that we need materialistic indulgence,
and constant bragging of himself, which he thinks that is giving us advise.

Well you cant lock people like us in a God damned bird cage,
as much you want to lock us in, as much as we want out,
he claimed my friends have bad influence on me,
the truth is, they gave me different point of views,
different from his, any stereotypical adult reading this paragraph,
would inmediatly jump to conclusions that,
i am just being rebelious, without any 2nd thought.
This is the problem with current adults, most are stereotypical,
as much as they say about some current young people who seems to be wasting their
(explainative) time on useless stuff.
they regard all young people to be the same, this is what i meant of being stereotypical.

well, i guess this is all i need to vent my anger and disagreement,

way different........

2009-01-11T13:34:00.000+08:00

After a crazy and punishing but interesting week of work,
I finally got a God given, much needed day of rest,
but I had to attend driving lessons today,
Its a great experience, it was the first time I legally drove on the road lol,

the driving teacher's name is Lai,
we conversed in cantonese the whole time.
He started teaching me driving skills like when to step on the clutch or accelerate,
I am driving a manual kancil,
i maintained the speed at 20km/h to 25km/h
which is darn slow,
but i was comfortable with it,
until i gained confidence,
the teacher asked me to drive on the main road,
nervous, the car engines died when i was releasing the clutch too much,
fortunately, i was able to get myself out of the mess and drove off,
I drove at 40km/h on the main road,
keeping left letting cars to pass,
continued the loop for 1 hour plus.
Luckily i knew the place from the back of my hand,
recognizing roads wasn't hard,

It is way different from driving a car with an automated gearbox.
Especially those with power steering,
and its real different from the keyboard and PSP dials,
they say its tiring to drive cars without power steering,
i guess it was the adrenaline kicking in,
didnt felt tired.

hopefully i get my driver's license ASAP,
it feels good when i am driving.

deadly clockwork...

2009-01-11T12:00:00.000+08:00

-Through the lens of history,
war seems to function with a frightening punctuality,
like a murderous music box. Battles are no more than clockwork mechanisms of death,
a drama of destruction with each act flowing naturally into the next,
until one side or the other is vanquished.- Michael Liberty. (depicted from the novel 'Liberty's Crusade')

3rd day of work

2009-01-08T16:13:00.000+08:00

Its imperative that i have to sleep early or use caffeine as compensation,
the morning rush hours, the rush, the crowd, its exciting,
though its like exciting at first, not so the following times.

the guard at the special passage has mistaken
my broken touch n go card for a monthly pass,
explains why some commuters are looking at me.
50mins of standing on a moving train is not really a good combination,
but its morally implied that we should let the physically challenged and
elderly people to have the seats,

for young people, no such luck, especially guys,
it is almost impossible for us to get seats,
deal with it, be a man!!!
work was pretty much the same,
my colleagues are Yassim/Jason, Shafiq, Nazri, Siti, and i forgot another gal's name,
i refer to her as kak only, lol.

the cycle starts, morning, coffee,
work, work, work
afternoon, tea,
see training presentation
tea again
pack stuff into boxes,
then work finish.

its the same riding on the train for 50mins,
maybe 30mins if lucky,
well it would be the same for the rest of the week hopefully.

1st day at work

2009-01-05T23:09:00.001+08:00

its the 1st day at work,
my mom dropped me off at Bkt Jalil station,
i was lucky, i got on the train once i reached the platform,
thus, the rolling metal wheel sound is directly below me,
i have to go all the way down to majid jamek station,

everyone seems to be disembarking into the masjid jamek station,
the crowd is enormous,
i guess this is what it feels to be part of the rush hour.
I walked down into the subway line,
at the subway station, there is a larger crowd,
we have to line up to get into the train,
5 trains passed before i finally boarded one,
its was really packed,
can barely move in there.

finally it reaches the ampang park station,
i disembarked the train and went to my
designated work place,
in front of the office, there is other ppl waiting,
i guess they are here for the same thing,
we introduced ourselfs,

As we sat at the conference room and introduced ourselves,
they are shocked to find out i am a form 5 grad,
they thought i was a uni grad,
which was quite funny,
they are all uni students.

we had lunch at a nearby restaurant,
as they are all Muslims,
they were looking for a place to pray or surau,
they went to the surau at ampang park as i walked around
the place,

then, we walked back to the office,
until 5.30pm, we are dismissed,
i walked with a friend to KLCC,
he was running some errands there and i am looking for job vacancies,
then he went on his way and i went to look for the british council,
it was hard to find as the building isn't very attractive,
had to ask the concierge for directions.
Finally found the place and it was closed,
the security guard was looking at me.

when i was on my way home,
the touch and go card didnt work.
it worked in the morning but not in the afternoon,
turns out all the touch and go card cannot be used,
walao, no wonder so many ppl lining up, had to line up
for 20mins to get a ticket.
memang Malaysia boleh.

it was another gruelling 50mins before i reach bukit jalil.

perfect friday

2009-01-03T17:10:00.000+08:00

hmm,

I usually go out for a swim at the bukit jalil
aquatic center every friday during schooling days,

I guess its because all of us are busy these days,
its been 2 months since we perform the usual friday routine,
went to wai qin's house at 3pm,
he drove a mercedes to pick me up when i was on my way to his house,
mun wai, bee zhai and bee zhai's little brother is there,

he drove us to a mamak stall nearby for lunch,
then we went to the stadium for a swim,
not many people knows that the bukit jalil
aquatic stadium is actually now a public pool

well, muscle memories served me well,
I still remember the moves,
swim for some 5 laps,
then, we went on to play basketball around 6.30pm,
we played till 7.30pm.

I dont know when we would have the chance to go out like that,
since most of them starts school tomorrow and
some of us are going to work till result comes out,
dont think we would be free.
Hopefully, we would have this previlage next time.

Happy new year!!!!!

2009-01-01T01:35:00.000+08:00

Time is one thing that comes silently,
and goes silently without us noticing.
So much had happen,
so much lessons learned,
so badly pounded for the some of us,
by the cruelties of life,
but prevailed to tell the story.

2008 brings us joys and sorrows,
but hopefully, 2009 would be a better year,
its a break which everyone of us needs.
I personally has see much change happening in front of me,
some was good, but many were disappointing,
changes are unavoidable part of life,
which makes our life richer and with more flavor,
embrace the change.

Hope for the best in 2009.

Happy New Year!!!!!

Slow afternoon......

2008-12-30T09:45:00.000+08:00

another day spent on computer games,
its a personal record to finish a game in 24 hours,
yeap, i finished call of duty 5 in less than 24 hours,
it wasnt a short game
it took sometime to go through hardcore japanese soldiers.
well, gotta go play red alert 3.

Friday outing

2008-12-27T04:55:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 10 something today,
found out there is 5 new messages.

for the rest of the morning,
I am occupied in arranging transportation for the guys later,
time was so short, I found myself texting one hand and frying ham with the other,
have to get the arrangements ready by 11am so things wont go wrong at the last minute.

Finally got everything right,
sat down on the couch with a nice cup of hot coffee before shao tien come pick me up at 12pm.
I am all alone at home, as my dad went to China and mom went to work,
my grandma and sister went to my aunt's place,
the morning couldn't be better.

Around 12, shao tien arrived with kin wei to pick me up,
I turn off the TV and rushed out.
Then we pick up Cindy and Kelvin,
followed by Michelle.
After picking everyone up,
we pulled over at a shell station to pump air into the tires.

Then we continued on to KLCC,
it was a 45 minute drive there as the traffic is slow.
Joked in the car for some time,
after buying movie tickets,
we had lunch at San Francisco Steak House,
which was quite expensive,
at least we didn't have to wait for a long time.

we all had set lunch, as it is the cheapest on the menu,
i have lamb shoulder,
it was filling and quite tasty,
the bill looks better.

The 1st show is starting,
we watch The Spirit,
which sucked,
everything is in black, white and red.

took some pictures after we came out of the cinema,

The 2nd show is just 30mins after the 1st show,
we watch bedtime story for the 2nd show.
It was hilarious, we all laughed the entire show.
We had dinner at A&W later,
then we went home by PLRT then LRT.

Christmas Day

2008-12-25T17:33:00.000+08:00

Its already past 12am,
I've been longing to have a white Christmas,
but sadly, I am not so lucky.
Looking at the presents on my desk,
waiting to be distributed tomorrow,
it reminds me of that my family,
don't have the tradition of celebrating Christmas,
we only have a simple dinner together,
no Christmas tree or decorations
which is already adequate for us.

Its great i got a brand new sport shoe,
specified for trekking,
which is a present from my uncle and aunt,

Christmas to many of us,
means a public holiday,
exchanging presents,
spending time with friends and family.
But it actually signifies the birthday of Jesus,
son of God,
he was born some
2000 years ago somewhere in the middle east,
he was sent by God to release mankind of their sins.

ok now, I gotta go, its late.

renewed experience.......

2008-12-16T02:24:00.000+08:00

12/12 to 12/14

The last time I had to stand up and speak in front of a crowd,
was during form 3, when I was requested to fill in as lead debater
in my class chinese debating team, the team is organized the last minute though.

they didn't even gave me a draft or something, so I draw up something
in 5 minutes which wont survive 30 seconds,
I think i could do miracles like robin williams or russell peters,
but, I did my best to present the makeshift draft that I'd made up,
when questioned by the opponent, I was stunted, didn't know what to say,
for the 5 seconds i stood there, I had a horrible feeling when everyone is looking at me,
the 5 seconds felt so long.

the fear remained 2 years later,
now, i have to give another speech,
in front of peers and friends which i just knew for 3 days,
we developed an interdependent relationship as all of us learn from each other,
mustering and combining everything we've learn in the past 2 days.
working into the wee hours, i refined my draft the best i can,
it could be the best essay I'd ever written, but am I able to deliver it as well?
the time indicator on the lower right of the screen indicates 2am,
it was time for bed.

the next morning,
i woke up,
wearing my only formal wear in my cabinet,
i made coffee,
and i revised the draft over and over again in the car,
had not done something like this since SPM,
when i went into the class,
was greeted by a few friends in their dad's working attire,
last minute brush up is being done,
got another cup of coffee,

then, it was time,
as my friends go one by one on the stage,
my turn kept inching closer,
as my turn came, it was the usual do or die
even they didnt say that.
my thinking went blank when i was waiting for my turn,
it was game time, i told myself.
I referred to the draft the whole time,
I knew I wasn't even half as good as my friends,
the paper is shaking as i hold it up,
I wasn't focusing on anything or anyone the whole time
everything was a great blurr,
I continued on, till i finished my last point,
and walked off the stage,

they say it was not bad, a nice try,
but i knew it myself till which extent it was.
anyway, i glad it was over.

we had a close-up.

Got Welson to made up his mind in buying a VAIO
later at PC fair, might get 1 myself next year. haha

2008-12-12T13:11:00.000+08:00

Woke up in the morning,
one I reached for my phone,
i found the screen was blank.

I spent the whole morning trying to 'stimulate' the screen to startup,
but failed miserably, I had a meeting at MV later the afternoon,
where primary school mates comes out and meet,
desperate, I borrowed my sister's phone,
then, i called one of my friend to confirm where to meet.

me: eh, kit mun, later where you guys all meet?
kit mun: what?? didn't they tell you its canceled since last week?
me: CRAP la, i was about to go out already, why NOBODY told me???
kit mun: dunno wor, i tot sumbody would tell you.
me: RIGHT, whatever la, NO GO then NO GO lo, bye.
kit mun: oooo

then, my aunt called and reminded me about the course on public speaking tomorrow,
i am supposed to go to her house to overnight so she could send me to MIM building tomorrow.
well, my uncle called, say he would pick me up at 3pm,
so, i popped a few shots on the computer while waiting.